Me: Under the Knife

by Maria on September 12, 2010

This post isn’t about food. So if you’re looking for an early fall recipe or cheery write-up of last night’s dinner, feel free to search elsewhere.

You see, I’m getting my back fixed tomorrow. Disk surgery. A seemingly innocent injury has, over time, flared up into an angry mass of pain that can no longer withstand the rigors of everyday life.

Apparently, this disk wants out. So I will let it go.

I’ve done my homework. Sought multiple opinions. Bought cute pajamas and amassed a stack of reading material.

The logical part of me knows that this is one of those times in life when you simply need to dig up your courage and deal. So that’s what I’m doing.

The other part of me, though, cringes at the thought of a surgeon that I met for all of 30 minutes slicing into my lower back, digging into my spine and grinding off bone. Even if he is the best at what he does, a perfectionist by all accounts.

But, the day has now arrived, and at this point, I’m as prepared as I can be.

I’m ready to be better. Ready to again be the person I used to be: the one who ran half marathons, who lifted weights and joyfully practiced yoga. The one who reveled in the flowers and vegetables in my garden and could tend to them without paying for it later. The one who could pick up my three-year old nephew and carry him around, even as he wriggles away.

And, yes, the one who cooked. Because my cooking has suffered as well.

Which brings me to this blog. I’m not sure where I will take Fresh Eats for the next couple of months. It could become a blog about healing, about cooking while recovering, or it could go silent for a bit. But this much I know, I will be back, and I hope you’ll be there with me.

See you on the flip side.

{ 14 comments }

Jennifer Hess September 12, 2010 at 11:58 pm

I'll be right here, sending you good thoughts and my best wishes. Here's hoping this brings you the relief you need.

Mardi @eatlivetravelwrite September 13, 2010 at 12:02 am

Maria, we're right here for you when you are ready to come back. Thinking healing thoughts for you and wishing you a fast recovery! xoxo

Maria September 13, 2010 at 12:10 am

Thank you, my friends. I really appreciate your good wishes! : )

merry jennifer September 13, 2010 at 12:25 am

I hope you're back at the yoga before you realize you were ever gone from it. :)

Good luck tomorrow!
Hugs!

Maria Raynal September 13, 2010 at 12:28 am

Merry Jennifer, that's what I'm going to focus on — lots of Downward Dog! : )

Marie (Food Nouveau) September 13, 2010 at 12:49 am

Wow, I didn't expect to read this on your blog today! Good luck Maria, we're all with you. I'll be sending my positive energy to you, I hope you'll have a quick recovery and be able to resume your favorite activities. The goals are worth it!

Kelsey B. September 13, 2010 at 12:49 am

Good luck Maria, I'll be thinking of you!!

MrsWheelbarrow September 13, 2010 at 12:54 am

Dear Maria,
Good luck! I'm sure it will go well. Give yourself time to rest. Be indulgent with yourself. And know that we're all out here sending you a virtual hug. xoxCathy

Jordana September 13, 2010 at 1:10 am

You are going to be great! I know it. Will await Wes' email with an update tomorrow. xo

Maria Raynal September 13, 2010 at 2:05 am

Thanks, everyone. I'm grateful to have such great friends.

Lynda September 13, 2010 at 3:06 am

Good luck Maria! I am sending lots of positive thoughts your way!

Laurie September 13, 2010 at 1:31 pm

Good luck, Maria!

Winnie September 13, 2010 at 10:11 pm

Good luck Maria! You are ready…heal quick and return to blogging soon 😉

melly mel September 15, 2010 at 5:36 pm

Maria – I'm behind on my google reader and just read this post. Best wishes for a wonderful surgery and speedy recovery. Looking forward to your future blogging, whatever fashion it may be.

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